Thursday, February 12, 2015

twenty-six.


After 26 years on earth, it’s astounding how little I know about pretty much...anything. Yup, I will openly admit that I’m more or less clueless about this crazy mixed-up world we’re living in. I’m just taking it day by day, y’know?

While I still have a lot to learn, it hasn’t been 26 years of nothingness. There’s been brutal heartbreak (the listen-to-“Nothing Compares 2 U”-while-crying-in-the-shower kind) and there has been absolute joy (Like, the kind where you’re almost sad because you just think there is no way it can ever be this good again). There’s been challenge and frustration and mistakes and shame and pride and moments of true desperation. Life’s a tricky business, ain’t it?

I turned 26 this past week and while it’s kind of a “means nothing” birthday, it meant a lot to me for a few reasons. First, every year when I have my birthday, I am reminded of how many people truly, genuinely love me. It’s overwhelming to be quite honest. My husband, my family, my friend, my co-workers.

MY CO WORKERS. Lordy may, did they go out of their way to make my day special or what? From the food (JET’S TURBO STIX AKA THE WAY TO MY HEART) to the decorations to the card, it was all just too much. I am so grateful to be a part of another special kind of family.

Secondly, each year that I get older, I look back to see how far I've come. Call me a sucker for nostalgia, but when I think back to where I was one year ago, two years ago, ten years ago--it's so fascinating and fun to compare and contrast and to really think, "Wow, if you would have told me at 16 that this would be my life, I would have never believed you." Seriously, Sixteen Year Old Katie would have never believed anything I told her now. "My future husband lives 10 houses down the street? Is that what you're telling me right now, Ten Years Later Katie? Riiiiiiight. Go take a hike, ya crazy!"

Right? Who would believe that? No one, that's who.

But I digress.

I want to make some promises to myself in my 26th year. There are a lot of things I want to accomplish in my 26th year, and I hope that Vinyl & Paper will be the place where all my attempts will be documented--failed and accomplished. I want to travel, read more, write more, take more photos, take less selfies, watch less TV, eat less junk, and just be better. Just be better. In my 26th year, I just want to try to be better. And as Coach Taylor would say, character is in the trying.


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