Friday, February 19, 2016

being tired and being happy.



Jeremiah and I decided to film our lives for awhile, which is the main reason why I have fallen off the face of this blog's earth, but once I decided that it wasn't something I was 100% comfortable doing--he stopped editing. Now notice I said, editing. He's still been filming and taking little glimpses of our lives here and there, but now the creativity stops after he loads the footage onto his hard drive. I wish he didn't, and I even told him that I would continue to be a part of them in some capacity, but when my "gung-ho" attitude died; so did his. It's a shame really because I loved those videos. Selfishly, I want him to continue because I loved re-watching them--little snippets of our lives rolled into 5 minutes set to some dance pop song. Life looks so good when it's like that.

But as we all know, life is definitely not a montage of moments cut to a dance pop song.

Life is headaches and heartache and stress and worry and so much work.
Life is driving here and making sure to be at that thing there and planning and going and going and going.

We're all so tired. 

Literally every person I come in contact with on a daily basis is just one word: tired.

And this is when I start to wonder to myself, "Self, why am I so damn tired all the time? Why are my friends all so tired? Why is my husband tired? My coworkers? My parents? My pup, Miles?"

As I wonder and worry and wish that I could make it all better for everyone, I start to gain clarity as to why. It's because we're all just trying so hard to be the best possible version of ourselves that we can.

We're all wanting to be happy and in order to happy, we have to work and be tired and pay our dues and run on fumes for awhile. I think maybe we need to be tired in order to appreciate the happy, right? What good would happiness do if we didn't suffer a little? We'd all take it for granted even more than we're all guilty of sometimes doing now.

This past weekend, Jeremiah and I were brainstorming what we should do to celebrate Valentine's Day. We thought about dinner, but meh, we were (you guessed it!) too tired to go anywhere!

We thought about going out to a movie, but UGH, so much effort. Even if we would have mustered up the strength to go out on Valentine's Day, the plans would have be thwarted due to the random blizzard that came rolling into town--so instead, we bundled up and took our adorable pup on a walk around the neighborhood.

It took about 10 minutes of convincing (on Jere's part) to get me to go.

"Wait, you want me to go WHERE and do WHAT?" The thought of going to a restaurant while I sit and people served me food sounded exhausting and now you want me to go outside and WALK? Boy, you must be tripping!

But his cute smile and "please, baby" attitude, finally convinced me to strap on my snow boots and go.

And I am so glad I did.

Yes, I was tired and completely unmotivated and dreaded being outside, but then the snow was falling so quietly. And Miles was digging his snout in the snow and coming up for air with flakes all over his nose in the cutest way possible, and Jeremiah was taking photographs and grinning from ear to ear. And I was happy.

Tired.
But happy.

What makes you happy? Do more of it.
What makes you tired? Do more of it.

Be tired and be happy. I think I've decided that we can't be one without the other.



6 comments:

  1. Life...the downs show us the ups.I tell my three, every day you will have 10 awful things and 10 amazing things happen.It's up to you to decide which one you focus on and that one decision will determine your happiness.Love to read your blog my lil TK.love your heart!Thank you for sharing!

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    1. You are such a wonderful example of looking on the bright side! Thank you for reading :)

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  2. Life...the downs show us the ups.I tell my three, every day you will have 10 awful things and 10 amazing things happen.It's up to you to decide which one you focus on and that one decision will determine your happiness.Love to read your blog my lil TK.love your heart!Thank you for sharing!

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  3. Going for a walk pretty much solves all my problems! There's nothing like breathing the fresh air and seeing all of the beauty outside. Great job on getting out there!

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    1. Thanks! I never knew the power of a good walk! :)

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